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Apr. 7th, 2010 02:53 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
salad_barbarianIt is a good viewpoint to see the world as a dream. When you have something like a nightmare, you will wake up and tell yourself that it was only a dream. It is said that the world we live in is not a bit different from this.
I few things that have been going on in my life:
My dad was sued. The only thing my parents say about it is that everything is going to be ok. It's not fucking ok. The credit company that went after him are the same ones who when after mom. How long do my parents think it will take until they come for me? They could get anything from them since they are on SSI or welfare but I actually have a job. It doesn't pay much but I don't want that taken away.
A friend from work came by recently so I could help her with her computer. I set her up with firefox with a few basic add-ons. It took a long time because instead of using my home wireless thing we had to use her cricket doohickey. I couldn't even find where on her laptop the wireless connection utility was!
My little garden seems to be growing well. Although it's attracting gnats so I'll have to put up another fly strip.
Went to a lagoon a few days ago. The water had all sorts of garbage in it. But I did see a turtle. I didn't know there were any in there.
The neighborhood is getting worse. It was bad during the winter with all sorts of fights going on but with the weather getting warmer more people are coming out. I want to leave and my parents want to move but where would we go? We're barely making rent here and any other place would probably charge more.
I tried sunflower seed bread. I really didn't like it.
Had a great Easter.
After I don't know how long I was finally able to finish watching Coyote Ragtime Show. I had started watching it through netflix but the last DVD became unavailable for some reason. But yesterday I found it legal on youtube!
I now have a reason to visit South Africa. Giant! Chocolate! Bunny! Hey![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
plunderedheart if you let me stay with you I'll give you one of the ears! :D
WARNING THIS PARAGRAPH IS A LITTLE DISTURBING:
I had a bad dream a few nights ago. In it my head had gotten taller like it was puffed up with air. My forehead was about an inch or two higher. I went to touch the top of it and it collapsed down to normal except for the front. There was like an overhang of my skull but after that it was like my skull disintegrated. My skin and hair were still there and it was like I could feel my brain beneath it. The entire top of my head felt like it was really hot and painful. When I woke up I had a migraine and I felt nauseous when I touched the top of my head.
From one of the recent writer's block:
If you could eliminate one emotion (anxiety, sadness, jealousy, regret, etc.), would you do it? Why or why not? If so, which one would you choose?
I would choose to eliminate apathy. Think about where you are as a person. Where your county is as a nation. Where we all are as a species. All of the opportunities and potential for good (or evil) wasted. I can't say for sure it would be a utopia. Hell it would just as likely be a dystopia but it would be because of what we did instead of what we let happen.
I've always said that I believe the most powerful force in the universe isn't love. It isn't hate. Not hope or fear. It's apathy. DC's recent war of light would have been more interesting if it had included a gray corps. But if they did I don't think any of the other groups could have realistically stood against them.
Well that's all I can think of now. Best to think of it all as a dream.
I few things that have been going on in my life:
My dad was sued. The only thing my parents say about it is that everything is going to be ok. It's not fucking ok. The credit company that went after him are the same ones who when after mom. How long do my parents think it will take until they come for me? They could get anything from them since they are on SSI or welfare but I actually have a job. It doesn't pay much but I don't want that taken away.
A friend from work came by recently so I could help her with her computer. I set her up with firefox with a few basic add-ons. It took a long time because instead of using my home wireless thing we had to use her cricket doohickey. I couldn't even find where on her laptop the wireless connection utility was!
My little garden seems to be growing well. Although it's attracting gnats so I'll have to put up another fly strip.
Went to a lagoon a few days ago. The water had all sorts of garbage in it. But I did see a turtle. I didn't know there were any in there.
The neighborhood is getting worse. It was bad during the winter with all sorts of fights going on but with the weather getting warmer more people are coming out. I want to leave and my parents want to move but where would we go? We're barely making rent here and any other place would probably charge more.
I tried sunflower seed bread. I really didn't like it.
Had a great Easter.
After I don't know how long I was finally able to finish watching Coyote Ragtime Show. I had started watching it through netflix but the last DVD became unavailable for some reason. But yesterday I found it legal on youtube!
I now have a reason to visit South Africa. Giant! Chocolate! Bunny! Hey
plunderedheart if you let me stay with you I'll give you one of the ears! :DWARNING THIS PARAGRAPH IS A LITTLE DISTURBING:
I had a bad dream a few nights ago. In it my head had gotten taller like it was puffed up with air. My forehead was about an inch or two higher. I went to touch the top of it and it collapsed down to normal except for the front. There was like an overhang of my skull but after that it was like my skull disintegrated. My skin and hair were still there and it was like I could feel my brain beneath it. The entire top of my head felt like it was really hot and painful. When I woke up I had a migraine and I felt nauseous when I touched the top of my head.
From one of the recent writer's block:
If you could eliminate one emotion (anxiety, sadness, jealousy, regret, etc.), would you do it? Why or why not? If so, which one would you choose?
I would choose to eliminate apathy. Think about where you are as a person. Where your county is as a nation. Where we all are as a species. All of the opportunities and potential for good (or evil) wasted. I can't say for sure it would be a utopia. Hell it would just as likely be a dystopia but it would be because of what we did instead of what we let happen.
I've always said that I believe the most powerful force in the universe isn't love. It isn't hate. Not hope or fear. It's apathy. DC's recent war of light would have been more interesting if it had included a gray corps. But if they did I don't think any of the other groups could have realistically stood against them.
Well that's all I can think of now. Best to think of it all as a dream.
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Date: 2010-04-07 01:59 pm (UTC)I like the question you posed. I would lose anxiety because it paralyses me sometimes.
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Date: 2010-04-10 11:35 am (UTC)That chocolate bunny looks kind of scary.. although just a thought of the amount of chocolate it is made of warms my heart lol.